My brain often craves order, or the more honest description, control. Can you relate? However, time-wisened Rebecca is learning that control doesn’t exist, and when I try to seek it, it often leaves me exhausted and disappointed.

I still believe in the power of habit, preparation, and consistency, but I’m focusing on process and playfulness over outcomes. I’m working on being open to experience without trying to change a thing.

I’ve been drawing again and playing around with new digital art mediums. None of my work is polished, it’s experimental and delightful.
I’m experimenting with going “off-brand” and trying stuff I might not ordinarily choose, like booking a ghost-related history tour, wearing crop tops, and eating giant frozen bananas in a foreign country (okay, that last one is probably reasonably “on-brand,” come to think of it).
Speaking of travel, I’ve booked more trips in 2023 than previous versions of me might have considered sensible. I have zero regrets thus far.
I’ve also been looking at my relationships with more honesty, compassion, and accountability. I no longer make excuses for how other people are or are not showing up in my life.
I’m prioritizing rest and fun. I’m deliberately un-busy. I have time to give to the people and experiences that fill me up. Share a dessert, start beginner adult ballet classes, frivolous fiction reads? Count me in!

So here’s to embracing the sweet and soft and attempting to go with the flow, even if my first impulse is to ask, “what time is the flow happening?”